Thursday, August 31, 2006

somehow, 46o5 class gatherings sadden me each time. yes, i miss the guys and the great fun we once had, but each time i see him, i'l b filled with mixed feelings. tis is as usual, after every class outing, but also after seeing pj n sze huan today, made me feel.. lonely. i see the fun and ease they had, and i tink of how it was like with me n luke, but i jus dont rmbr much of e happy times we had. i dun rmbr him accepting me for who i was and being gentle, sweet and giving in to me. he was not a gd boyfren. n i on e other hand, stupidly threw away 2 chances. its funny how fate plays with u. its true tat im too busy now, with studies and ccas n commitments to hav anr commitment, but there r times lke tis, on rainy days n durin e hols wher having tat someone is much missed. its gg to be anr bdae tis yr, without much of a celebration. its been so many yrs wher i hoped for tat special someone to celebrate with me, but it has never come true. pj is luckier. much luckier. treat him well yea.

n i oso wonder. have i really forgotten luke? coach said i haven, cuz i stil get agitated wen i talk abt him. isnt it natural under the circumstances? n i do, sometimes tink n compare him with others. or mayb jus bcuz it was my longest rs. no worries my frenz, im fine. jus pensive.